What are cult dreams about?

i had a dream about three days ago -

in the dream i willingly joined a cult - not out of the ordinary for someone like me - however, the cult eventually told me that i had only been accepted because i would make a great sacrifice.

again- i, for some reason— see absolutely nothing wrong with this.

moving forward i was injected with large hallow needles that severed and ‘sucked up’ my veins.

the first needle went into my upper thigh - it hurt of course.

when i woke up later that morning - my thigh hurt really bad where I had been punctured.

*WEARING LEGGINGS - THEY HAVE NO HOLES OR TEARS IN THEM - I WOKE UP WITH SEEMINGLY NOTHING WRONG OTHER THAN PAIN IN MY LEG*

after pulling down my leggings i found a large hole that was still bleeding.

what the actual fuck.

i can’t think of something I would have done this to myself with - if you want pictures just ask.

any answers would be awesome

I was in a car with some of my family when they started...doing stuff. My brother was pulling down my grandma’s pants and then he went to do stuff to my dad. I kicked him and my dad out of the car when I realized what was happening and what would happen if I didn’t get out. Once they were out of the car I jumped out and started running to my moms house(she wasn’t part of the weird cult). But while running I came up with a plan to get my cult family arrested -somehow- and started running over to their house.

The dream ends there and now I feel like I can’t look at my brother the same way. If the mods want they can delete this weird post I just felt like I needed to tell someone.

I dreamt that I found some place between realities and was eavesdropping on some people, but the longer I spent in that veil, the stranger the conversations became until they all seemed to be aware of my presence and were staring me down, chanting something.

Really strange dream last night. A loooot like a movie. I remember that it started with Mark Wahlberg describing this weird ritual sacrifice that his cult performed. The process was 1). Paralyzing the person and laying them on their back with their hands on their stomachs. 2). Installing a metallic device with a bright red tube in their arms or shoulders (i can't remember). 3). Gradually slowing their breathing and making them less conscious. It feels incredibly painful and frightening. Like slowly blinking out of existance with ever increasing struggle until you die.

To be honest i only remember three distinct parts. The presentation above being one of them. Another part was when i woke up in this very white room with a bunch of other individuals in white clothes. We had the same device but we were all awake and it was in our forearms. The devices were inflating and deflating our forearms like a balloon with some kind of liquid. We were all just sitting there. An Indian kid and i were facing each other.

The third part was what scared me and i still have slight paranoia about it. I was on the couch relaxing and my mother made me some tea. Both my parents were acting very casually. Suddenly i felt my breathing intensify and i slumped over paralyzed. Both my parents got up quickly and started speaking some weird langauge while they performed the ritual on me. I was terrified and it felt very painful. When i died i finally woke up.

it’s usually a “space” themed, but last night we were in the ocean.

The people from my past are around in the dream but not talking to me- giving me side eyes and talking to each other if they do talk-
If I try to talk to them they don’t want to hear it, rather an unspoken, “we’re just waiting to get out of here” or “get out of here”

Last night there was no one I knew, only strangers- same feeling

In real life:
I escaped from a cult and no longer have ties with anyone- and never will- not good people.
I’ve struggled with attracting good people and am manifesting good people but as of right now, I don’t have anyone in my life save my therapist and advisor.

Yes, I feel ostracized in real life- I have my entire life- it’s a feeling I don’t know how to heal

I’m tired of this recurring-