What are losing an eye dreams about?

I had my First dream in what seems like forever.

What does it mean?

Just darkness for what seemed like forever.

Then I came across a White Eye, it was just calming.

The White Eye fell, then was eaten by the darkness.

A Phoenix Rised from the darkness,

And then I was back to surfing the darkness.

After a long time I came across a dark purple balloon flower, with golden markings that moved like it breathed.

And then it was darkness again...

I came across corpses that would gaze (without eyes) and turn their heads as I walked. But I was not terrified I was calm.

I traveled down a white and black spiral, my mind was blank and I was just going with the flow.

And after that I had the sensation of floating though water. And it may seem odd but my mind and body felt like it was swimming.

It was just unreal.

What does it mean?

First let me start by saying that I’ve never smoked meth before, so I can’t say what it feels like in real life. Anyways I was having this dream and I all I remember is that some drug dealer tried robbing me and I ended up accidentally killing him with my car.

I took the body and threw it in my sewer that’s by my house. I went back home and I had a bag of meth that I’d taken from him. I decided to try a little bit of it. I took 2 big hits and got really fucked up. I started shaking and really bad and the whole room started spinning and it was extremely hard to see and I felt like I was going blind.

I walked to my bathroom and looked in the mirror and saw that my left eye looked like it was dead. It was all glazed over and red on the side. I rubbed it and my entire eyeball fell out into my sink. It got stuck in the drain and I had to pull it out with my fingers. It got all dirty and covered in sludge so I washed it off in the sink and went to tell my mom that my eyeball fell out and I need to go to the doctor.

Then I woke up. This was a very disturbing dream to me. And I’ve been thinking about it all day. I just had to write this down so I could get it off my chest.

I was in the bathroom my mother was arguing with my father for im not sure what, but she kept calling my name telling me to scratch of the make-up she forced me to put on or she would break my teeth

Next thing I remember Is something thats making me tear up as I type It. My mother was In this weird hospital like room dismembering someone with a machine saying in a sicking voice, "this bone to that bone" that bone to this bone" naming all of these different bones... She was using a machine to tear out this guys bones and reshape his skeleton WHILE HE WAS ALIVE AND AWAKE WTF. This went on for a good 2 minutes. When the guy stood and SMILED! He was covered with stitches, his eye balls were poking out, he had no eye lids, his legs were so badly disfigured he easily could've had 5-6 joints in each leg, his face was extremely swollen none of the muscles on his face moved, It was just stuck with his slightly open mouth expression.

After that was over I was back In my bathroom just shaking and looking at my face with make up all over it for some reason. My mother was very angry, I confront her about some things shes done to me in the past, and she pushes me onto the ground desperately tries to stomp on my face
I got up and ran. She then screamed something along the lines of "IF YOU DON,T GET THAT OFF YOUR FUCKING FACE YOUR GONNA END UP LIKE HIM!!! She kept yelling at my father saying, "Im about to fucking kill (my name)" I genuinely believed she would do that... I then see a screen on the wall briefly showing her choke my little brother, he didn't even make a sound...
She gently put him back down as if she were just carrying him

My mother saw me peak down the stairs, I said "your choking him!" She screamed STFU! I ran downstairs and told her that she needed to stop. Im on the ground again and she just kept screaming in a raspy voice, telling me all of these violent things she would do to me I don't remember much else but I woke up so sick to my stomach that the events from the nightmare kept replaying in my head making my whole body jerk and tear up every five seconds. I didnt completely stop until about 10 minutes...

I genuinely think I need help...

By everything i mean everything who i was, who i knew, everything and after i woke up i did remember all of that but for that dream i didnt remember who i was and i somehow got to my school hallways and there was this little girl in a room i walked twords her but she wailed like a banchee but she was pale as a ghost she had no eyes just a void there and then she started walking twords me anyone know a reasoning for this dream(and before you ask no i didnt watch a horror movie before this)

I was in a supermarket in Beijing and I walked into a restaurant. There was an old wooden door at the back that looked really out of place, so I went inside and saw a narrow dungeon corridor with dried blood and hay everywhere. There were metal cells with horses in them, but the horses had no eyes, just bloody holes where their eyes should have been. Further down there was a big room that looked like a barn with two lines of people standing parallel to each other. Their eyes were also ripped out so they couldn’t see me walk in but they heard me and thought I was one of the horses. One of the men expressed how sorry he felt for the horse because horses don’t know how to kill themselves.

I went outside the dungeon barn and there were very fat birds who also had bleeding holes for eyes trying to fly away from the hawks but they couldn’t support their weight. The hawks were small but they could carry the fat birds away and rip out more of their eyes.

When I went back inside the dungeon barn, all the people were frantically trying to kill themselves for some reason. A woman was grinding her head on a wire fence, making her head shred like a cheese grater and some boys were happily jumping of the second floor and dying as if it was a game. A priest encouraged the others to do the same before instantly dying. Then I woke up.

I’m not depressed at all and didn’t interpret the dream as a nightmare so does anyone know wtf this was?