What are Netherland dreams about?

I tried to commit suicide in a dream. I stopped myself though, and the girl I was with also didn't do it, she was also going to commit suicide.

Before I tried to commit suicide i went somewhere. it was some room or something, idk if you know league lore, but it had kind of a zaun-y (league of legends) feel to it, and kind of a gen z feel to it aswell. It felt like we were at a party but i don't remember partying. most of the people in the room were very pretty.

I ended up talking with people about their insecurities and how it's never gonna work out and stuff (feelings of doom), people that had already given up I guess

One of these people was this girl i was with who i felt very connected towards. I also felt amicable to her, I liked her a lot. She was next to me in a different setting, I think it was a bus or some sort of weird room. She was talking about how she wasn't going to be able to do school and how she fails at school, how she'll never make it because she doesn't have what it takes.

She has to work at someplace she doesn't like because she has a hard time with school. She wasn't going to school anymore, she was already working there for a while. It felt like these people i was talking to though had all already given up, or at least they felt extremely hopeless to me.

So i tell them my age, 21, and one of them says that's young, the rest seemed to agree (that's the vibe I got). I tell them the reason I told them my age, which is that I feel behind and I already should've finished, but I'm not letting that define me, as to show there's still hope and they shouldn't give up.

Then i don't fully remember what happens but I continue talking to that girl, maybe I messed some of the order of events up.

Then we get in a car, her (the girl i feel amicable towards) in the driver seat (on the left). I think we were sort of in the USA, but maybe in the Netherlands. not sure not really relevant I guess.

The method we choose is choking ourselves which is interesting I guess, since choking yourself seems impossible to me (you'd faint before doing it, right?). But in the dream it was possible. I started doing it and instantly my vision faded a little bit and I felt like I needed the air. Then i kind of slowed down after some time.

Then, I stopped fully. It felt like the girl had done the exact same. She felt miserable because she doesn't know what to do with her life, I feel okay, I just know that I need more time, and I try to lift her up with my logic. then I wake up.

Everything felt extremely real,.. -also because I was being myself in this dream, usually I do weird things that make it so when I wake up, I don't associate that much with the dream. Or things happen that are too inconsistent with reality (edited). I don't make any decisions that are out of character, this really fits my idea of myself.

Here is my introduction I'm an eighteen years old transgender woman living in the Netherlands and I study journalism and I'm kinda in dubio with myself always.

Before I tell you more about this I give a little bit of background information. I received a message from a tall, pale, ginger boy where he declared that I was attractive. But I didn't send anything back, because I thought he was on a too high level for me.

My dream started at a demolition point where I got informed that he was going to die very soon. I visited him later that day where he laid down on bed with his white and blue striped pyjamas with his shirt opened. He tried to calm us, but I walked home crying because we all knew that he was going to die and like predicted he did that night and I couldn't sleep anymore.

I visited his grave the night after the funeral and saw him moving with his shirt closed for the first time, but I got distracted by a silhouette and followed it. Only to find myself back at home in the death of night. I opened my window and saw him again with his shirt opened. The dream ended with us flying away with our pets in the night sky.

It haunts me can someone please explain this to me? (Sorry for repost)

I was at a beach of sorts and it was nice weather. We where with 4 people in total and had fun. I remember a huge billboard showing a station or bus stop in clear tropic waters with 3 benches saying ''friends, family, loved ones''. Which was clearly something of a vacation thing.

We had fun but then we heard a monster attack alarm going off and we where like: ''Not again'' and fled in to a portal. We ended up in a station in London. Just a regular old station that I knew was in London but doesn't exist. It was tiny and it looks Victorian, a bit like Dordrecht Central now that I think about it. We went down escalator's till we hit the bottom floor.

The fun was out of it and lots of people where in ''get home'' mode. And it honestly felt more like a drill. All these people where clearly evacuated and not in an frightened state. Just annoyed. I walk in to the main hall and you could see people standing with bags all like ''now what'' You could see Piccadilly circus from the windows outside and I saw another version of the 7th Doctor with Mel.

He didn't look like McCoy but acted like him. He work a dark blue suit and wore no hat, he looked older and more set, like some one's grandpa but younger than Sylvester looks now more like an Italian guy and he had a different nose. But he was pretty much the same character-wise, complete with his rolling R's. Mel was just Mel with the same haircut and 80's clothing. They where known people there, so not like the show, more like regulars. ''O! its the doctor'' That sort of thing. I also knew that he already had met Ace and that this is after the hunt incident but the shooting never happened

Instinctively walked up to him and asked If he could please send me back to my home dimension. He kindly responded with a sure and asked for some one's phone to borrow and he got this: gameboy sized but flat

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It was like bigger than an original gameboy in dimensions but the thickness of it was more like an heavy remote, so allot thinner like an gameboy like half of it. and It probably felt like it was good in the hand. It was this ugly brown/green indestructible plastic that I used to like and it was basically a phone as described. An 80's smartphone but more advanced than ours so to speak.

Down below the device you had this big old fashioned tv screen where you could see your menus. You had controls and buttons locked away via one of those old plastic doors on the side. And the speakers next to it and another screen for info stuff beneath it. The other speakers where on the underside. So its still a phone, it just had many uses. And again, It was more advanced than ours. And I want it.

The Doctor basically only had to lift the screen out of the casing and cross two wires to get me home. The device looked 80's but was so advanced that it could basically become a trans-mat device by simply crossing the wires. He knew this, I knew this. But I wanted his help.

Then a older lady with brown hair and glasses in a chique brown outfit told him in an arrogant manner that. ''he didn't have enough equipment'' And the doctor turned to her and looked at her like: Excuse me but I'm going to rant for an hour about how much you're wrong and how right I am and then I'll eat 10 jellybabies and continue with my speech till I'm done.'' Then I woke up xD

In this dream when meeting the doctor I basically knew who he was, who Mel was, where I was, How to get home, How advanced the world was and that there where aliens and stuff around like it was a normal this.

I also knew he was going to trans-mat me back by using my energy signature to home in on my home universe and zap me back. I also knew that I'd be stuck in London over there and not home in the Netherlands and that I'd be in trouble there. But the doctor acted like he was asked this all the time

I had a very chaotic dream last night. So I was sitting on the sofa until my mother saw my search history and showed it to me. I saw thing I never looked up but she didn't believe me. So I decided to flee to the Norwegian wildernis (I live in Netherlands).

I built a camp there and suddenly a helicopter flew above me with my family in it. They waved at me and shot a flare gun right at me and set the forest on fire by accident. They flew away to let me burn

I have no idea what this means? So I ran away with a few friends to the Netherlands,we had no plan just to get away, we just wanted a break from our current life. And it jsut so happens that the guy I used to date was also there at the same exact time as me. He invited me into a bar with him and his friends, his dad was there too because (in real life ) he has family there. We just sat together and spent the whole night just like it used to be, the lighting was super warm and I felt so comfortable. I’ve been really stressed out in my normal day to day life and thinking about him randomly, maybe it’s just a message of my subconscious and my actual wants. I really want to see him again and I really want to take a spontaneous road trip to take a break from my everyday life.