What are pretending dreams about?

So in this dream I approach a woman called sarah. I tell her I'm finally ready to go deep. She says ok and let's do this. Immedialty I'm transported to something. Indescribable tbh. It was like I was looking at a stream of everything in the third person. I was talking to her in this stream but because we said so much I couldn't bring back anything. Eventually I'm brought back to where we met in the dream and I feel like I just returned from eternity. I then try to move around and can't because I am so disoriented. I go find a bathroom where I go to look in the mirror. Before that I glance at the sink and see blood in it. I think it was my blood but it wasn't recent. I then look up to see my extremely Vivid Zombie face in the mirror with me hyper ventilating. Both the zombie face and experiencing everything was so long surreal. Is especially the experiencing everything.it was painful and lasted forever yet I pretended like it was fine to her. I told her I could do it.

I dreamt I received a phone call from a friend who committed suicide a couple months ago. This friend and I haven’t spoken in a few years, though we used to be very close. His death came as a surprise to me.

In the dream, I looked at my phone and saw his name and was surprised because I knew he had killed himself. I answered the phone and pretended like nothing happened, thought I remember thinking in my dream “just act normal” and so I did. He just said “hey” and i said “hey, how are you?” And he said “ok, and you?” And I said “good” then I couldn’t understand him anymore, the call was breaking up then just went silent.

Any thoughts on meaning?

I was driving a big rig truck (I'm not a truck driver and never have been) down a dark highway through some slush. i was having fun driving recklessly, swerving between lanes through the ice and getting back over just in time to not hit a car. At a point I stop driving so carelessly just in time to go over a very thin one lane "video game esque" bridge and proceed.

As I'm driving I see a cat ahead trying to cross the road but the opposite lane is full of traffic and scaring it. I stop the truck in a way that blocks all traffic and the cat (a siamese) runs to me and jumps in my arms. I take it with me.

I'm missing a small part of the dream here

As it picks up I'm still driving the truck but have now picked up my ex as a hitchiker. I drive around running errands (dream shows me from out of body going in a building and out). At each stop I notice the moon keeps eclipsing making it seem like daylight briefly but whenever I notice it, it seems to go back to normal night time.

We drive to my grandpa's house and I go inside for a bit, then come out to get my ex. I warn him theres an eclipse and not to look at the sun in a rude voice and bring him inside. In the corner of the living room there's a bed frame and a large enough suitcase for him to sleep in and I tell him he can rest there and go to find him a blanket.

I can only find one blanket besides my own but it smells bad. I bring it to him but he found one already and has made himself comfortable. I walk him to a closet to tell him he can help himself to anything in it.

The closet I "know" is full of like desk toys and little tourist trap crap we got on wholesale, and theres two circlular racks in front of it full of snacks. He can help himself but 'these have to last for us" there's also a bunch of I <3 NY stuff on it.

At a point the cat I picked up in the truck has turned into Princess, a cat I left with my ex because she liked him best.

My interpretation: The stuff with my ex, my grandpa's house, the I <3 NY stuff and the cat make sense. I feel a lot of guilt for how things ended with my ex because while both our financial situations crumbled (Mine due to my grandpa's death, hence the presence of his house) I ended up able to move out of state and am mostly fine and supported while his situation is more precarious (and i have lost contact with him for the last month because he finally stopped pretending he was able to be friends with me after). I miss my cat and worry if she's okay, and I do miss some stuff about NY since I'd lived away from the state for five years and only got to be home for one before I had to leave again.

I can't pinpoint what the eclipse, driving the truck recklessly, and driving the truck normally mean though. Maybe the truck could be how I kinda dove headfirst into my new relationship only a month after my breakup and now I'm taking things a little more seriously but still doing well? but I don't get it fully and the eclipse and running errands with a trailer eludes me entirely.

On the bright side I told my boyfriend the dream and he picked up on the latter part of it well, said once covids over we can look at visiting NY and doing the stuff I missed out on doing again because of covid (Like apple picking, it's all little homesick stuff).

When I was young, about 4 or 5, I had a dream that I was in a huge cave. In the dream I was an adult. The cave was tall as well as deep and divided down the middle with a huge canyon. The cave was dimly lit well enough to see everything but I don’t know how. Dream logic. When the dream started I was on one side of the canyon in the cave and next to a door with a curtain made of tinsel like from a Christmas tree. One the other side of the canyon there were massive oriental rugs that were dangling that people were climbing up and then sliding down. I watched them for a moment and I wanted to go and climb it and slide but I was scared I’d get rug burn so I stayed on my side. I turned to go into the tinsel curtain but stopped to get a very close look at one of the rocks. I grabbed a rock on the wall with only my finger tips and I got a fuzzy feeling in my fingertips. The feeling is best described as my nerves waking up again after my hand fell asleep or something but not as pins and needles like. More like a dulled down version and it was almost a tingling but very fuzzy feeling. It was the feeling of this that was so remarkable for me even to this day. Nothing has ever given me this feeling in my life and I only experienced it in my fingertips and my hands. It was unusual in my dream even now. As the dream continued I decided to go through the tinsel curtain but I decided to try and feel the individual tinsel as well. I pinched a piece of tinsel a slowly ran my fingers down it and activated a similar yet different, almost shocking and sharp feeling between my fingertips. I could distinct the two different feelings but they were the same dull, shocking, fuzzy feeling. Then I woke up.

I’m now in my 30’s and if I think real hard, if I close my eyes and pretend I’m back in that cave I can feel this feeling again. Both of them. I remember the thickness of the rock and the sharpness of the tinsel. I can still literally feel it in my fingertips on my right hand. As I wrote this I pantomimed the same movements from the dream and recreated the same feelings. However, I have never felt this way with anything before. It only happens when I think of the dream. It doesn’t happen if I actually touch a rock or grab tinsel. I’ve done both to test it out. It’s only when I recollect the dream. So strange that the dream created this and it carried over. It’s like my nerves are reacting to the memory of the dream. It’s not like remembering what it felt like. It’s not a memory. It’s not like scraping your knee, or burning yourself, or getting a cut and you can remember how that felt. It’s more like I can activate my nerves and make them believe that I am actually feeling it as if the rock and the tinsel are there. It’s the most unusual thing. It has actually scared me from time to time because it’s like touching something that isn’t there. It all started with that dream.

Has anything like this happened to you?

I was asleep (in the dream) and an Asian woman started sniffing and licking my face with her tongue going in and out like a toad. I woke up (again, in the dream) but pretended to still be asleep. Then I opened my eyes and asked if she wanted to see my penis. She did and then started performing oral sex on me but the super-human suction on her mouth was so intense that it hurt so bad that it felt like it ruptured my balls, I had to get her to stop and afterwards my balls felt all rigid.