What are burying dreams about?

27, male, gay, kind of lost since my break up 1 1/2 years ago, struggling with mh issues which makes everthing more difficult. I used to be very easygoing, and extroverted and now I ask myself:"Where did all that go?" - I really don't know.

Last night I had a dream that took place in a snowy landscape. It looked like Siberia in soviet times, that was the vibe I was getting. Outside was nothing but a few hills and a forest nearby all covered in snow. I also remember that there were some objects buried under the snow, like rusty playground structures, a swing, a roundabout and a car wreck. there was a blocky concrete building. Not a house, it was open to the sides, it was a station with one platform and a single railroad. My memory is very blurred, unfortunately it's very hard for me to recall the stuff I dream, but here is what I do remember: I wasn't alone, I was with a group of people. I don’t think I knew them, they were dressed very warm but real worn out shmattes. They have been waiting there forever trying to get on the transportation vehicle which was pulling in there infrequently and at random times. To be allowed in one of the few two-seated vitreous gondolas which were pulled by some sort of a railroad engine (it looked sci-fi-ish and dystopian) was very hard. Not only one would have to be there in line the second when it arrived (which could be suddenly out of the blue after months or even years of absence), your name also has to be on a list, the conductor would check before letting anyone in. To get a seat seemed to be a very intransparent and complicated process. The riff raff, who didn’t appear very sophisticated, and after camping there for so long got savaged a bit, followed me everywhere I went, as if they hoped that I could figure something out. No it gets cryptic. I started exploring the area while the people told me about their situation there. I went in a car wreck, where a living sow was. I started milking it. I was a bit repulsed, why I can’t really tell, (maybe it’s a jewish thing). In real life I probably wouldn’t have a problem with it, however in the dream I found the watery milk I got out of that swine kind of disgusting. With a bucket full of sow-milk I got to the platform, where I waited for the monorail. When it arrived I showed the conductor the milk, and this seemed to be an accepted currency for the purchase of a ticket or something. He allowed me in, I took my seat and off it went through the snowy mountains leaving this strange sight.

What could that all mean? Is there a something known about the symbolic of milking a sow?

I dreamt I was in a church and someone was standing next to me. I turned to the person and they were covered in what looked like a large cloak, but somehow I immediately knew it was me standing in front of myself. Nothing was said, no movement was made, but I stab the other myself and killed her. The church was empty otherwise. I then proceeded to somehow fit the body into a black trash bag and then drove out into the desert where I buried the other myself in a shallow grave.
For some reason I decided to walk back home and as I got to the road a truck nearly ran me over, then stopped and handed me strips of meat which I proceeded to eat with my hands before waking up.
Does anyone perhaps have any ideas as to what this could mean? Any help would be appreciated

TW- CSA, very brief discussion

My grandpa passed away in January. In around August my aunt told me sexually abused me as a child when I asked. I kinda knew, deep down in my heart. Anyways I've talked about it before here so I'll keep it short.

In my dream he started out alive and sick like the last few years of his life. And then he died and was buried in the back yard. I said something in the dream about being uncomfortable about him being buried there.

Through the kitchen window I saw a little male fairy on his grave and the second I tried to show my grandma is disappeared but there was like ten cats hanging out and sitting on his grave.

I got a text from another one of my aunts (married into family, no longer aunt, havent seen in so long) and it was "ghost orbs" from the other room. When I zoomed in on these orbs they changes shaped and kinda.. idk I would actually have to draw it to explain it. Anyways I got really freaked out, I use to be super scared of ghosts as a kid, like abnormally scared.

I kept taking pictures as well. I went to go pee before I went to bed and there was another fairy, this time female and she said something that scared me I can't remember. This dream was really blurry.

I asked to sleep in my aunts room with her and she said yes.

I am so confused about what this all could mean.

Last night I had a super odd dream.

My great grandfather was back from the dead in the same outfit we buried him in he was planting a pink cherry blossom tree in our front yard..He lived in this home before me.

As he was planting the tree he was telling me I have something very wrong with my liver and I needed to have a ct scan. He was adamant that I would soon be very sick and in the hospital but that with his help I could prevent death.

In the dream I got so angry with him I left my house in my car. When I got on the highway my check engine light came on and it broke down. I woke up.

I currently believe I am pretty healthy but do feel that this was some sort of warning honestly. My great grandfather was very intuitive in life he sort of always just knew things.

Should I get my liver checked out or did this dream mean something else? Thanks in advance!

I had a dream that I was with my boyfriend and a random female character from a show. We were adventure hiking in Madagascar -- seemed we were in the jungle. We came up a steep rock drop and they geared up with ropes and harnesses to lower themselves down it. I was excited, thinking we'd be rock climbing (I like climbing) but when I realized we were just navigating down, I ignored safety and kind of recklessly leapt my way down. I remember doing dangerous balancing acts and the like, thinking "is this a good idea? Am I going to die?".

Then we entered this ancient temple. It was kind of buried in sand, I think, but we found an entrance. Inside there was this cool library that struck me as abandoned. Weird it struck me as abandoned as overall we were in some lost-to-time ancient structure. I remember the other two were wandering the library and this one, out of place book on a pedestal caught my eye. It looked pretty new age and I debated going up to it but instead looked past the library to find the inside of the structure. There were beautiful green, greek-style pillars and it seemed a massive room that went a long way down. I tried to draw the others attention to it, like, "screw the library!". The random woman character at that point was sat on a couch glued to her phone. I remember kind of losing it on her. "Do you see this shit?! This is no time to be absorbed in your stupid phone. There's a whole life to live out here!". Anyway, my boyfriend and I ended up leaving her there and continued on.

As we were exiting the temple out the other side, I presume, there was a desert scene. We came upon some fellow adventure hikers that looked marine-ish. We were all geared up, heavy packs and the like. I don't remember being perturbed by the rough conditions -- I like for things to be difficult. Once in the desert thought I could see, way up on this impossible looking kind of hill in the distance, that there was this huge madagascar-like tree that I was under the impression we were heading towards. Its roots were visible to me somehow, through this narrow kind of hill it stood atop of.

While in the desert we came across the marine-ish characters camping in the distance. They said something like, "this is what it's about. Watching you kids become good at hiking.".

We continued on until we came upon a glacial river. The landscape obviously changed accordingly. At this point I recalled, as my boyfriend tried to show me how to navigate over this thin ice without breaking it, that I'd had this dream before. The last time, I broke the ice and he got mad at me. This time, I guess I succeeded: I got over the thin ice and delved into icy water, but was blown downstream by the current. He had to come after me and catch me with his hand. This is around where the dream ended.

This seems utterly fucking packed with significant symbolism. ?????? Ideas very welcomed.