What are shrinking dreams about?

I stand at a hospital window, I stand with my mother and another woman, I cannot recognize her, but I know her.

My mother and I are talking, not about anything in particular. My eyes glide across the room, to our side are three separate hospital beds.

In the first sits an old white haired woman, she is missing her bottom half and looking somewhat dazed.

In the second bed are her legs, they are moving as if she were bicycling, they are connected to machines that seem to keep them and their bloodflow active.

in the third and last bed lies part of a man, he has been sliced from his left clavicle and diagonally down through his torso, he is alive and well, talking quite non-chalantly into the room.

Across his torso is several incisions that to me indicate he has either volunteered or sold what remains of his body to keep another persons organs alive using his own body.

my mother and I are talking, the young woman without a face stands with us, but mute.

I suddenly hear the words in my head.

\>Memory upload initiated<

I am flung through a sequence of memories I do not remember, scenes I have not experienced, play by in fast-forward.

I feel like I have shrunk to 1/20th of my size and am being dropped into a pocket dimension. I stand, or rather float in a spherical room of technology I am unfamiliar with, I am weightless.

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after a short while I hear the same voice in my head again. >Memory upload completed, Memory deletion initiated<

I am thrust out of my body, I now see things through the eyes of the woman I could not recognize, but all from the point that I heard the "Memory upload initiated".

I look at myself through her eyes as my own grow blank and empty, absent. I suddenly start speaking in riddles, in a pace I cannot follow. I see my body shrunk and falling through a crack in space.

I hear. >Memory deletion completed<

I stand at a hospital window, I stand with my mother and another woman, I cannot recognize her, but I know her.

I ask my mother.

"What happened in Houston?".

she replies.

"You know what, let's just forget about that.

I look at her in bewilderment.

"But mom, I already have."

I was quite a bit younger when I had this dream, but I remember it to this day. There wasn't any sound, but I remember that me and all the other kids and adults at the daycare I went to had to hold hands and not jump. One kid decides to let go of the group and jump up, and he just went up and up infinitely until I couldn't see him anymore. The adults were worried and told all the kids to keep holding hands and not jump. Out of curiosity I let go as well and jumped. Last thing I remember was looking down watching the ground and people beneath me rapidly shrink as I floated up and I had this frightening sense of falling. Suddenly I was in space and the earth was fading into the distance. Then I woke up out of fear.

Thinking about it now, it kinda reminds me of that horror manga about the holes people would crawl into because they were drawn to it out of curiosity.

It never fails, I wake up every time feeling nauseous. Lol Have you ever experienced something like this? Just me? Lol

Okay, I've went to shrinks, doctors and other people trying to get this to stop.

This dream I have been having seems to serve some purpose or I might be going off of the deep end from this recurring dream.

Here's what it's about...
It starts off with me getting out of a vehicle that I don't know and I look around and I'm in an area that is snowing and with a old style house I pulled up too.
Apparently I live there since my body walks up to the door and unlocked it, as I open the door I holler out to my S/O that I'm home but I don't hear anything. So I start walking around the house and trying to shake off a bad feeling something wasn't right and so I grab my cellphone from my pocket and walk back to the door but as soon as I do I get stabbed in the back and I hit the floor I never see who did that to me.

I've went as far as trying to change the dream but it seems to end worse than the last. I think I'm seeing a path of my future self I'm more worried then anything because the last time I was able to see a mirror and saw myself and it makes me ill Everytime I wake up.

At one time I was able to mentally stop my body at the door with a feeling of deja Vu but it didn't stop myself for long and ends with me hitting the floor anyways.

So if someone could please tell me I'm not crazy and help me figure it out.

I was trapped in an industrial labyrinth with only a pistol. It was barely visible with the only ambient light coming from holes in the roof of the warehouse. I was chased by these disgustingly fat sausage shaped monsters frantically dragging and waddling themselves towards me with these frail and disproportionately small arms.

Their skin was a discolored gray with dozens of brown and green spots as if it were badly molding bread. The monsters’ skin stretched so tightly around their bodies that their rib cages bulged through despite their obese figure. The bottom portion of their faces were split open and dangled loosely like raw steak.

I tried shooting the monsters but that only seemed to make them angrier. Dropping the gun I ran, stumbling clumsily over stray pipes and occasionally my own feet. I cried, begged and screamed for help but my cries were drowned out by the cold darkness of the labyrinth and the guttural and bubbling growling coming from the wall of flesh nipping at my heals.

A burning vibration, what I believe to be dream pain, radiated throughout my foot into my calf as I collapsed to floor. I looked back to see half of my leg submerged in its gaping and fleshy maw, it’s cold and indifferent eyes locked with mine. I clawed at the grimy linoleum flooring as the monster dragged me deeper and deeper into its mouth.

I could feel my skin rip, the pop of ligaments being tore from bone and the crushing of said bone. I could feel my breath get lighter and and hear my screams grow fainter as it’s tongue crushed down on my rib cage. The shrinking of ambient light coming from the labyrinth being the last thing I saw as it’s mouth closed shut.

The darkness of its insides melted with an unknown ambient light and I found myself back at the beginning of the labyrinth again, eyes desperately trying to fix themselves to the darkness around me, the monsters directly in front of me.
This scenario looped more than 5 times with me dying every time until I finally woke up.