What are widow dreams about?

I’m a male 20, Mexican and I’m mostly a more shy person but I’m working in getting better social skills.
I dreamed that I had this powder in a protein plastic can that had pictures of spiders and I mixed it with water. After that I started hearing voices and I knew they were voices of spiders. There were tarantulas and black widows. I can recollect that I got bit by 2 black widows and that spiders would climb on the back of my back and neck and talk to me but I would shake them off myself because I was still scared of them. I started getting used to them talking about being around me but I was still scared. I saw a total of 2 widows and about 5 tarantulas. 2 small ones and 3 big ones.

Idk what the fuck I have been watching or doing for this to even happen.

Let me start off by saying that I am just freshly out of a relationship, but I don't have any negative feelings towards my ex or her mom. Or any of my exes or their moms. They all are really amazing people and I really want the best for all of them.

Unfortunately, I can't really remember exactly who the girl was in my dream. But my best guess is that it was my most recent ex.

Luckily, the dream took place after the death happened. It was never said how I killed her mom, but the image/feeling of a pillow to a face was all i thought about during the dream. So i must have strangled her. But the dream was me and my partner sitting at a table and talking about what was next. She was oddly calm about it but kept saying the police are going to find out.

My dream girlfriend said that she was a widow and her father was abusive throughout their marriage. Just a random fact that i remember her saying as we were going through her belongings (laptop, ipad, purse, etc.) It was like we were gathering evidence or maybe even estate for my gf at this time. Its a scene that still isnt making a lot of sense to me.

Then the next thing i remember was being at the table again and my girlfriend was saying either I go to jail or kill myself. For some reason jail wasn't even an option for me; I knew that I was going to have to kill myself.

But I really, really didn't want to die. I kept thinking about my parents and friends and how they would react. And i kept thinking about things i never experienced in life. I was filled with immense dread that made the dream so fucking vivid. I was panicking and knew that if i was questioned by the police that i would give myself up immediately (i have pretty bad social anxiety and i get nervous around cops when im not doing anything illegal)

I also was too scared to ask my girlfriend what she would say if we tried to cover it up and kept thinking to myself how I would go about it. How I'd live in constant fear of anyone finding out it was me.

Then my alarm went off and I woke up. But that dread was so vivid that I thought the dream was still real for half a second. My heart was racing when I woke up. For sure the weirdest and scariest dream I've ever had. And the first one to shake me up so bad that now I'm here lol.

And for more back ground on me, I could never hurt a fly. I've never even been hunting because I could never pull a trigger on an animal. And I'm not in the military because I could never kill someone. Someone would have to murder my parents or siblings for me to actually kill someone. Other than that, the thought of it makes me sick. And the same goes for suicide. I've been through some shit but I could never take my own life.

Is this just some weird dream or is there some deeper meaning?

Tldr: (even tho i really suggest reading the whole story) I killed my girlfriend's mom (the act wasnt in the dream) and had to grapple with the choices of going to jail or killing myself

Last night I dreamt that I was talking to someone however my side belly was showing and my sister walked in the room and covered my side telling me to keep my privacy.

Afterwards she opened the widows and I asked her why she would open the widows if she wanted me to keep my privacy. That’s where the dream ends.

I was having a dream about walking in a forest. It looked like it looked soft with moss and big beautifulgreen trees with a soft light. I was hungry in my dream, so I picked up red and white mushrooms. I took a bite from one, then realized after that the mushroom had a black widow spider etched on the red top, it also had white dots all over the top. Then I just said whatever its a dream anyway. Then as I reached the house I was walking to, I was told by two people I had to skin the bear outside. When I went outside, it looked orange like there was a forest fire near by. Then I heard the bear talking to me in my husbands voice, and it said not to worry I'll do the hard part for you, just go inside the house. I went inside the house feeling sad and alone. The two people stretched out the fur on poles, then I had to make hide from the bear fur. I woke up and felt upset from loosing my husband. Even though he was sleeping next to me. I have no idea what this dream means.

So I had this dream Friday morning after my wife left for work at 7am but before I had to get up at 11. It's still stuck with me so I decided to type out as much as I could remember.

I dreamed I was in the post snap Marvel Universe. Everything was all apocalypse and shit. Buildings fall apart, trash cans on fire, that sort of thing. But no one else around. Anyway somehow I found the Avengers secret hideout. Black Widow was there, Thor, Banner, Ant-Man, but no Captain America. I didn't ask why Cap wasn't there but Tony Stark was there, but teleconferencing in. I remember I did something to save Hawkeye's life, he unmasked and joined the party. And that's what it was kind of, a party. We just hanged out and talked and planned about how we were going to defeat Thanos....

But instead of fighting Thanos we all got into the Quinjet and flew to the Bahamas where we looked at Christmas decorations on houses. Hen we went to a stadium to watch a highschool football game between a team from Zamunda and a team from Wakanda. The Zamundan team rode into the stadium from the East in normal busses, but the team from Wakanda rode in from the West in futuristic floating busses that look the Disney monorails crossed with Tron lightcycles. That's when I woke up.